it's been 1 hell of a rollercoaster ride.. things haven't been looking up for me since the start of this term.. and now as the term comes to an abrupt halt with the 1 week holidays in sight. i begin to wonder how did i exactly survive this excruciating ordeal.
everything plummeted from day 1, i ain't able to converse with em as easily as i could before, cracking a simple joke seemed hard, even smiling was difficult. i found myself frowning more and more with each passing day, the light at the end of the tunnel never in sight. a definite extrovert became an introvert all of a sudden. the change too fast and i found hard to adapt.
nevertheless.. the light seems to be getting brighter now.. i really hope so and pray its not juz a torch someone is carrying and walking my other direction, to fade away into the darkness once more. i can't possibly take another blow.
my efforts of wanting to get back to what i was is hampered by something or someone. i'm not sure, but i'm guessing its the upcoming promotional exam.. which of cuz i hope to pass and be promoted.. rumour has it that half of 309 and 310 will be retained and will be folded into 1 class.. i have no idea who came up with this funny idea, do they really have no faith that we will not be able to make it and not be up to their standards? such discrimination and undermining of us is really something no one can tolerate, i agree we may not perform AS well as the other classes above us but that does not mean that we will not be able to meet the min criteria set for us. looking back, how many of the current J2s actually made the initial cut? wasn't there a compromise in the end?
1month left and the clock is ticking.. PW and SPA adds on to the pressure for time, ever piling extra lessons is but a routine to us now.. sigh..
i want this to end, or at least give us a breather.. a long fresh one..
juz 1 more month to pull through.. i muz hang in there, even without them time moves on, i cant afford to be pondering over such trivial matters, time hopefully as what many says can heal most things. i hope its true for my case.. i'm crossing my fingers..

(9:48 PM)