Wishlist: New Computer, things to get better, HER, that bag, that Shoe Bag, new specs, to meet quota of 1500 for chingay
psalms 27:4
One [thing] have I desired of the LORD,
that will I seek after;
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the LORD,
and to enquire in his temple. [KJV version]
i was ecstatic when i learnt that my compo had managed to make its way into the compilation of compositions of my batch which my principal had compiled for us, supposedly meant to prepare us for our O levels which looms just days away from the written paper. either ways.. some of my juniors had requested me to post this compo up.. so here it is.. =)
Rejection
The stony silence was broken: the shrilly ringing of my alarm clock pierced through the air. As I opened my eyelids, a reddish blur obscured my vision paving the way for a spectrum of colours to eventually enter and grant me sight. Reddish-orange rays of the sun had penetrated through my windows and illuminated my air-conditioned room, truly a sight for sore eyes. Sitting up, still draped in yesterday's outfit, I tried to recall what had happened yesterday after heading to the pub. It was nothing short of a miracle that I had made it back home myself.
I staggered towards my dressing table, scrutinizing the mirror trying to identify the hideous monster that stared back at me. Its messy dishevelled hair, unbuttoned shirt and loose tie did not resemble me at all. Being frustrated at the image, my fists slammed down hard onto the dressing table causing my cologne to fall off the table, its contents spilling all over the carpeted floor.
Taking off my shirt, a scar stretching across my abdomen stood out outstandingly, reminding me of the ups and downs we went through together as a couple. How I wished she could just wrap her hands around me like she always did.
We were in our perspective a match made in heaven, destined to be with each other since our last life. There was nothing that could come between us except death itself. I had been scared out of my wits when I was informed of my wifeÂ's kidney condition; she needed a transplant desperately and might pass on to the next world anytime. Call it luck or fate but I believe that it was our love that made it possible for me to be a suitable donor.
Then again, it seemed too smooth sailing for the both of us. True enough I saw her collapsed on the kitchen floor when I returned from work one day, kettle whistling and a shattered cup lay in fragments a few feet away from her. Her hand grabbed her abdomen, face struggling in agony as beads of sweat trickled down her cheeks. Doctors informed me that my kidney has been rejected by her body; there was little hope of her survival. I gaped, dumbstruck by the sudden news of her inevitable death. My eyes grew teary.
My heart shattered when I stepped into her ward, doctors attending to her inserted a needle into her vein starting the dialysis process. I have never seen her with so many machines before. Blood was slowly drained out of her body and "purified" in the dialysis machine, lengthening her life with each second. Even so, her life hung by the thread as her condition was worst than doctors had initially predicted.
"Hi dear. How are you doing?" I asked, trying hard to hide the sadness that welled up within me. "I'm fine dear." she responded with some difficultly, flashing her bright smile at me. "What did the doctor say?" Â"He said you are going to be just fine, don't worry so much okay?" I lied, trying hard holding back my tears. "You're lying," she uttered, turning her back towards me, clearly an indication she wanted an apology and the truth. "You're going to die soon!" I blurted out; a chilly gust of wind blew into the ward. Tears streamed down my cheek as I rushed to her side, crying on her shoulder. Placing her hand on my head, "No point crying dear, I've seen this coming. It was only a matter of time." she said comforting me. Grabbing her hand, we stared into each others eyes, perceiving that we will get past this obstacle as we have so many times before.
I can never erase that night from my memories; a long beep sound was heard in the dead of the silence. Doctors rushed to revive her; I simply retreated from my seat and stared out of the window, staring at the full moon. A solitary, dusty raven flew up and into the night sky with a bitter croak.
[675words]
Yau Lih Ren Kenneth 4D
(10:28 AM)
BoA Everlasting
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
BoA- Everlasting.
ok.. im just lazy to blog and kinda dun want to talk abt my Bio prac now. just one word to describe it.. "Disastrous" or if u want a phrase.. "No longer can get A1 for prac"
(9:49 PM)
New Singles!
Saturday, October 14, 2006
my gosh!! 2 new singles from BoA and i didn't Know!! ARGH anyways.. here's her MV for the latest 2 singles..
Kwon BoA-Winter Love
Kwon BoA-Key Of Heart
(8:44 PM)
TJC the place to be
TJC.. the place to be how true is that..
went to 2 JCs open house on 13 OCT.. which is well yesterday.. specifically MJC and TJC.. lets start with MJC.. the exterior is simply stunning.. the atmosphere extremely lively.. BUT.. the comments from my seniors on normal MJC life is well.. err.. dreadful.. when we entered the JC i called my senior to be our guide.. but he simply told us to come and take a look around BUT not to come to MJC.. when i asked why.. he said flatly.. just dont.. obviously we[me heng hec] were taken aback.. i mean normally students from their school would be raving on how good the school is and asking us to join them espcially since it is their open house. but my senior is asking us not to come? weird.. the campus is a little small though and nothing much for us to do either so we were in and out in a matter of 45min and proceeded towards TJC.. although the exterior of TJC was not as stunning as MJC. it was no doubt much bigger and even from outside we can hear the JC bustling with life.. entering it we were greeted by who would have guessed.. Doreen!! Ex-Dunmanite.. wooHoo.. she was like so happy to see us, maybe cause we were the first dunmanites to arrive which i think we were cause we were on the dot at 2pm. we toured the interior and my gosh we were drawn into it. it is simply too nice.. it has to be.. its the JC i aim to GO! we met up with ya kai jonathan and wai kit shortly after and proceeded towards the sports field where we mey Dalia! another ex-dunmanite.. haha.. saw her twice as a matter of fact cause we went around the 400m track and they were too in the opposite direction.. LOL..[ -.-" ] either ways we went for a talk by the principal and that really confirmed where i was headed to and my extablished target for O Levels.. 9points nothing more [ 7 points to enter ] since i have 2 bonus points because of cca. my path was clear but it seems so hard to just know that its now the study break and not Holidays! anyways. here's TJC video
all the best to all taking GCE "O" and "A" levels! esp those doing bio prac this tues! [ that includes me!]
(7:32 PM)
short fuse
Sunday, October 08, 2006
i lost my cool.. i totally lost it all in front of my cousins.. i was attempting a math sum and frustrated when try after try i get the wrong answer.. my little cousins started making irritating voices which i could tolerate if i was in control of myself.. the frustration i felt within me simply needed to come out.. i said diam in a firm tone initially but they persisted.. i, finally lost it and shouted at them.. my mother was stun, cousins, aunts, grandparents.. everyone. they knowing me as a cool headed guy who rarely or never did show anger, seeing me unleashing the rage within me. i suppose it was incomprehendable for them.. my mother soon took me home where she knew i would be able to concentrate a lot better. in the car.. i related the incident to one of my friend, she too was taken aback stating it in her reply to me.. u concluded that i was too tense and thats where the prob started.. that i should probably take a break for an hour or 2 before continuing. too tense.. is it the stress? the fact that im pushing myself to the limit in order to achieve my target of 9points for Os? maybe it was..but who can blame me.. Os is just round the corner with the written paper starting in less than a month.. how can one not be stressed? come to think of it.. since i knew this. why did i agree to go down to my grand parents house? o yea.. it was to celeb my aunt's bdae.. sigh.. reality can be so harsh sometimes.. i just sincerely hope that this wont happen again.. it isnt exactly me at the moment in time.. a spur of the moment maybe? lord help me..
