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psalms 27:4
One [thing] have I desired of the LORD,
that will I seek after;
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the LORD,
and to enquire in his temple. [KJV version]
"Stained Glass Masquerade" Is there anyone that fails Is there anyone that falls Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small Cause when I take a look around Everybody seems so strong I know they'll soon discover That I don't belong So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too So with a painted grin, I play the part again So everyone will see me the way that I see them Are we happy plastic people Under shiny plastic steeples With walls around our weakness And smiles to hide our pain But if the invitation's open To every heart that has been broken Maybe then we close the curtain On our stained glass masquerade Is there anyone who's been there Are there any hands to raise Am I the only one who's traded In the altar for a stage The performance is convincing And we know every line by heart Only when no one is watching Can we really fall apart But would it set me free If I dared to let you see The truth behind the person That you imagine me to be Would your arms be open Or would you walk away Would the love of Jesus Be enough to make you stay
i feel many of us are feeling the way this song describes it. i know the song's a gospel song.. but i applies nonetheless to everyone.. let me explain what comes to mind when u read the word glass.. windows, mirrors, etc.. they reflect what u are.. they allow light to pass through.. this is what we are.. ideally.. transparent to the world our inner thoughts and feelings.. reflecting what we portray on the outside as on the inside.. so the phrase stained glass.. when a window's stained.. the amount of light passing through is limited, the image we see on the other side is tainted.. this means we are keeping something from someone.. a dark secret perhaps.. a lie which we justify as so not to hurt the person's feeling only that it works the other way when the lie is exposed. we say we will commit to something wholeheartedly in words.. but at the back of our heads we are thinking that we may not be able to do what we say we will.. we think how our social life is affected, how our free time will be compromised.. how much inconvenience it would bring upon ourselves a masquerade is simply a party where invited guests don on masks to hide their true identity.. i'm not saying all of us are.. but sometimes we tell people things about us that are not true.. maybe saying that u did this.. u are the captain of so and so.. scored so much for this test, etc.. simply to portray a good image to that person.. i mean.. first impression makes the largest impact. but that ain't really a good excuse now is it.. having said what we told them, we have to live up to it. and we continue to tell them lies and it eventually snowballs and we find ourselves having a huge backlog of lies which we need to clarify and confess to.. the world is a stained glass masquerade.. there are no perfect people.. only Jesus is.. no one else is.. i'm not.. neither are you.. we dwell on this land hoping to make as many friends and make our life as comfortable as possible.. even if it meant using underhand means and telling a handful of lies.. i'm trying as hard as i can to move away from this, i know i am accomplishing my goal.. little by little.. u may not notice.. no one may.. i mean.. how would they know.. living in a world of lies and deceit.. but one thing is for sure.. i do not live in a world where everyone else is wrong and i'm right.. i'm definitely not that kind.. unlike some people.. u know full well who u are.. if u do.. please change.. for your sake..
