sometimes i feel as if i am walking this path alone.. taking the ride of life on an empty train.. similar to the one i took last weekend close to midnight [picture on left].. am i really alone? some will argue that friends are always there for us.. i agree with that.. but could that be just another illusion to pacify ourselves? i don't know.. i really don't.

*really i have no idea as to why i said wad i did above.. so dun ask

with GCE 'O' levels finally coming to an end in 2days time.. one would normally look forward to the long break which followed shortly after.. the graduation day in school and obviously prom night where everyone would dress their best. and well.. erm.. go photo-taking crazy to an extent.. but what exactly is installed for us after these events?
i have yet to find myself work during the month of december which would be hard since im going on a week's overseas tour.[anyone wants souvenior?] that fact itself makes it hard for employers to hire me as there will be others who can work the full month.. i cant, for i know i will be entering JC for the first 3 months.. since my path have been assured.. been laid out since adam khoo.. for that reason.. i turned down my oppurtunity to serve NCC as an officer.. as a CLT.. the form was handed to me but i turned it down.. frankly because i wanted to take the JC course.. and i will not be able to cope with the workload if i became a CLT espcially with the heavy responsibility involved..
the rank i had craved for.. desired.. revered.. since i entered the unit.. the chance opened to me and i declined.. what in the world is going on with me.. is this what ppl call prioritizing? if it is.. then it aint something easy to execute.. i rather call it.. u want something.. u gotta lose something.. reciprocating in short.. but why muz there exist such a harsh reality? why cant the world we live in just be a "forbidden paradise" as many on the net call it? why cant North Korea and Iran just lay down their childish Nuclear Ambition! sigh..

ok enough with the wet blanket talk.. i am finally returning to church after a 3 months absence.. or maybe even longer than that.. but hey.. !! i'm back! i get to see everyone again! wheez!

(8:16 AM)