i tried and tried, and tried.
but i never got there.
never mind the pain, tears, heart-breaks.
the destination still stands far away.
i'm blinded,yet i'm not blind to see that i'd never get there.
but why me?is it me?or is it you?
absence makes the heart grows fonder.does it really?
or does it mean just more pain?
self-indulgence makes me upset.
i've waited and i'll always wait.
but.. till when?

nothing lasts forever.
and time wait for no one.
not me. not you. not us.
my words fall on dear ears.
my senses become numb.
my heart beats no more.
dead.

my creations never did make any sense.
perhaps it never will.
because what i feel doesnt make sense to anyone sometimes.
i cant connect.
i lose my touch.
i lose my sanity.
i lose myself.
i lose my mind.
i lose my soul.
i lose my emotions.
i lose my will.
i lose my strength.
i lose my thoughts.
i lose my light.
i lose my way.
i lose everything i could ever have.

(7:15 PM)